:'(
i'm finally blogging again.
i was crying when i read jodie's and yibing's entry
i still am crying
still want to cry
but crying wont bring yb back to be my stand mate
neither will it bring jodie back beside me for the next practises
;'(
i want to apologise
for being the most irresponsible person in the section
always running late
shirking off responsibilities
not helping to set up nor clear up
being the rudest too
:'|
i'm sorry.
my technics for bass aint good
but i always play so bloody loud
and sometimes let the whole world(in this case the ensemble)
know that it is the bass section out of tune
or wrong dynamics being played
or even worse not counting and coming in at the wrong time
:'|
i'm sorry.
*lowers head*
i'm the least united member of the bass section
out of two outings i didnt go for one
for practises i have a regular habit of not bringing pencils
or score
or rosin
or surely something that is impt
and only realise it when i start playing with the ensemble
i rmb one year ago
when me n huiyan came to the ME to play
we sat down to listen because we werent really prepared to play yet
the bass sounded good.heavenly
i didnt make the wrong choice to come into bass section and master the bass
i felt so blessed that i didnt choose to go into cello section
and.last year when i said i rather join band
i didnt think before i said that
now i'm glad i didnt join band
because ensemble marks a fresh new beginning for me
who was detached from a major portion of my fellow primary sch mates
i rmb the afternoons that we would practise in the bass room during sec one
i'll practise like siao then slack alot
cos my hand hurt
and we would gossip together as a section
laugh.then be well guarded just in case any intruders barged in
rmb our camp?
december one.
we cried together as a section
because we already understood each other so well
tears flowed in unison
we went into the conference room with swollen eyes
while taking our stools
and we helped each other with notes fingerings everything
:'|
wo bu hui wang ji ni men de hao.
the goodness will be carved in rock
the sadness written in sand

i'm the only member whom's not so close to the section
can that be saved?
hhhhhm
i'll make an attempt to catch up
patch up
thanks you jodie and yibing
i'm soory too